Sunday, November 15, 2009

suicidenotefromasmalltimerecipient

thesewordsarenothingmorethantheintertwiningofthesackoffleshthatsitsatopmyhead.eachdayyouwakeyouaskyourselfwhattodowithyourday.eachdayIwakeIaskmyselfwillImakeitthroughthisday.todenyemotionistodenylifetoinebriateistodenypain.toabstainistoembracelifetoexpressmyfinalexpressionistoembracepain.youwalkthroughlifetryingtofindameaningtofindyourway.iwalkthroughlifetofindthewordstosayandIamataloss.thewayyourlovesoncelookedintoyoureyesendlesslypassingthroughyourmindtryingtofindaway.thepassingoftimes…whatanicewaytosayreminiscingonpain.imnotnormal.iwanttodiewithmynameinvein.iwantittorainonmylovedonesastheycryoutmyname.iwanttoembraceeverythingcradleitinmyarmsandneverletitgoiwanttoembracethelifethathasplaugedme.iwanttoembracethedeaththatwillsaveme.













The words I muster in my very last breath will be my regrets